Hmm tired physically and mentally after all those intense excercise.
Thanks to Miss Heng,I predict she just love see-ing us being tortured by her.
I think is the alchohol still flowing through with the blood in my body deteoriate my stamina and increasing fatigue resulting me myself lacking of sleep.
I really wished I could just faint in the middle on the field and get sent to the hospital.
Abit sick,but I decided to keep up with it.If I say I'm sick,teachers wun't believe it.
I know for hell's sake it will endanger me,however I rather run and distract myself from thoughts.
Already promise ppl not to drink anymore,being a promising person,I shall not till I'm 18 before I get a kickout again.

Finally have the motivation study.
I set my goal,studying for the sake to keep the teachers happy.
I have been wondering who can I study hard for?
IF people don't treasure such teachers,I will treasure them
Perhaps you will think I'm a softie.Perhaps I'm one.
I felt fortuante and slightly in a mishap being in this class.

Suddenly have a surge of feeling that I lack of love,
I don't want to fall and fall hard.
I just want to keep myself happy being an independent and normal girl and a carefree life.
Think I just wait a while more.

Sad.

I nid to suppress the feeling for falling again