unbearable day for me.
I love sch,but bear a kind of disappointed feeling for those ppl who i look up upon them.
which made me kinda confused,or perhaps in a predicament.
I felt so upset,
does it gave instant gratification to those who taunt me.
I felt that people around me became a menace to me,
wreck and ruin my life.
Some shown hostility towards me which is too obvious.
Life's hard and demanding,
if we can't choose who we are,what makes u think u can?
Many told me they are just immature ppl,who don't know their limits and enjoy being a sadist.
Enjoy seeing people suffer.
Act as a good guy infront of people and start gossiping crap about me.
What does that benefit you?
I felt that,people are perceiving me as a target as a victim,
WOW,I'm incredibly popular,in a bad way.
You people show sympathy in life of those being attacked and die,suffered famine or invasion of bullets sunk into flesh of innocent people.
Some make fun of them,ridiculously outrageous.
And took themselves and how lucky they are for granted
I laugh.

What made you a belief of your own perspective in life, being a buddhist,a catholic, a taoist or whatever it has to be.
I laugh hysterically.

If you r a buddhist,if typical,do you believe in karma?
You are trying to pay for what you did in your past life?
What you did now,will ended up paying your next life?

If you say you love god,and god loves you for who you are,
if you met mishap in life,blame god?

You say u r a typical catholic,where are you principles?
What have you learnt in the bible?

If you are a taoist,believe treating others people good, people will treat the same towards you.You are making ppl taking advantage of you?What if one day you are unable to protect yourself?If someone point a gun at you,let them shoot?

See that contradicting part?
Don't deny,
I read many books,cause and effects,the bible,confusciousim.
Or whatever it is spelt.

Pent-up feelings made me so confuse about life.
Even the charity monk use money of us people donated and buy horses and stuffs like that.

Particularly.
Humans are like that.
Making each other suffer in agony.

Now,I want to make sure I never distorted your thoughts.
No matter how I complain won't change the way ppl feel about me.
I have a perspective in life,
pretty opstimistic person.
However,just because I respect every one and single one of them,
I held back myself from hurting them.
I don't mind having myself hurt.
But I have limits.
The wounds in my heart can be beautiful,
but eventually it hurts.
Rotting,moulding...
everytime people apply salt on my wound,
the pain is terribly hurting

FCUK THOSE IMMATURE IDIOTS.
IF SCHOOL HAVE NO RULES,
YOUR NOSE PROBABLY HAVE BEEN BROKEN NOW.
BHB.THINK YOU ARE VERY GOOD LOOKING?
I MAY RECONSIDER IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE SUCKUP ATTITUDE.
EVEN NERDS ARE GOOD LOOKING THAN YOU.